失望

今天是我的生日
但是我很不开心

觉得自己对他并不重要
为什么要让我一再的失望
就连今天都没有办法把时间给我

有没有想过我为何那么在乎
有没有想过你这么做我会有多失望
有没有想过让我开心的过这一天

为什么等待的总是我
为什么失望的总是我
为什么伤心的也是我

难道你对这一切就真的那么无动于衷
难道我对你来说就真的那么不重要

我到底以该如何看待这一切。。。。

能不能

第一次觉得心好痛...
你知道这么做我会伤心
但你还是选择伤害我

争吵仿佛都是我不对
我不该无理取闹
我不该蛮不讲理
我不该要得太多

当我伤心时, 你从不懂得安慰我
当我掉眼泪时, 你从不懂得帮我擦...

我只是想要你多一点点地关心, 多一点点的温柔...

我知道你忙
我知道你累
我知道你觉得我一点都不明白

你是否知道我在等
你是否知道我在想
你是否知道我真的爱你

为何要一再的让我失望
为何要一再的伤害我
为何要一再的让我掉眼泪
却得不到任何的安慰

能不能让我有走下去的勇气
能不能让我有不再哭的可能
能不能让我感觉到
你是真的爱我......

I Do Love You

There are times when we felt angry
There are times when we felt sad
There are times when we felt disappointed
There are times when we felt depressed

There are times when we feel happy
There are times when we feel delighted
There are times when we feel surprise
There are times when we feel excited

There are times when we have an argument
There are times when we made each other sad

There are times when we feel happy just to be here
There are times when we feel excited to be here

There are so many kinda feelings running through our minds
There are so many words we wished we had or hadn't said

But you know what...
One thing is for sure...



Love you~

What?

What do we look for in a relationship?
What do we need in a relationship?
What are we searching for?

People talk about commitment, fun, chemistry, soul mate...
What is commitment? What kinda of fun? What is call chemistry?
What is a soul mate?

People talk about compromise, trust, faith, belief...
What do u compromise on? What is trust?
What is faith? What is your belief?

Why look for commitment when u dun wish to settle down?
Why look for fun when u know u are going to hurt someone?
Why need chemistry when it always becomes the reason for breaking up?
Why do u need a soul mate when u dun even wish to share?

Why talk about compromise when u can't do it?
Why talk about trust when u dun need any?
Why talk about faith when u are the one who hurts?
Why talk about belief when u dun believe?

Show me your belief and let me have the faith..
Show me how u compromise, and i will do the same..
And in that way the trust in us will always be there...

Just tell me that you love me..
That's all u have to do...

Feeling Funny

The sun is irritating today...
Haven been at work for the past few days..

And my feelings has been down for the last few days too...
Why, i do not know..
I get upset about the smallest things that could happen..
I think of the worst that could happen over a not so big thing...
I get sad and feel like crying easily...
Why, i do not know...

Think i have got depression over stress?
But what is there for me to stress?
Money? Work? Relationship? Family?
I really have no idea what i am so stress about..
I guess that's always the case..

I yearn for that someone to understand me..
but somehow it never turn out the way i wish it would..

At times i wish i can be numb towards someone
Numb towards the things they do,
Numb towards the things they say..
So numb that i dun feel anything towards them...

But... i know i can't do that..
Infact i dun wish to do that..
I dun want to do that..

This is when pple always wonders...
" why can't u put yaself in my shoe? "

My LunchTime

Well well... it's 2.55pm and i just came back from lunch not long ago..

Me, my boss, colleagues.. not forgetting to mention they are all black :P
Okie.. my bad.. they are black.. but they are nice people.. haha..
A cute bunch of guys to hang around with..
Not forgetting that they are good drinkers.. everyone of them~

Well.. i was jus sayin we went to had lunch...
We went to this China Square foodcourt,
I din know there was 3 storey to the foodcourt.. it's huge~~
And there's so many food on each level..
But we settle dwn at the basement. :)

Off i went to look for food..
And i ordered Japanese food,
They lady is so nice.. She actually ask me to wait @ my sit,
And she will serve the food..

For 1 sec i was thinking " you sure"
This is a foodcourt man.. not restaurant..
When did they start serving food in foodcourts?

Well.. no matter wat.. i went back to my sit and wait for my food happily..
And after about 7mins of wait, my food is serve!
Now this is what i call Customer Service~~!!

I do hope more foodcourt in SG does that..
Not as in serving, but maybe give the consumer tags watsoever,
So that we dun have to wait wait n wait as the quene gets longer n longer~~

Cheers to the Teriyaki Auntie!! :)

Quizes For You?

I was reading my fren's blog when i came across this link..
It's quite true.. there are lots of other quizes in there..
Maybe you could give it a try~ ^_^

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test79.aspx

Here's what i got:

Kind and GentleYour kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

Haha.. looks like i am quite a good catch huh? ^_^

Bookfair Cum Pc Show >.<

Been real busy at work.. and sick at the same time..

But i went to the Chinese Bookfair and the PC show at Suntec yesterday~
Then again.. i was disappointed.. the books they have on display this year is so so so messy...
nothing really get my attention..
In the end i bought 2 taiwan novel at 5bucks each.

Then off to the PC show.. I was preparing to feast my eyes on pretty babes...
But.... disappointment again..
there were lots of peopletrying to squeeze thru.. and u see phamplets,
brochures all over the place..
people trying to get you to sign up the instant credit card
so that you can start swiping on the spot.. anyway these are expected..

The unexpected was... there was no babes to talk about!!
How can it be? PC show with no pretty babes as model?
There is a consolation at then end, i saw a not so bad babe, wearing tube..
So.. not too bad... at least one company got the right kinda girl to represent their product..
and the product was LG chocolate phone... hahaha ^_^

Last few days

First of all, it's firdae todae.. and YES!
I have got no wrk tomorrow!!

Well, let me recap what has happened for the past few days....

26th May Saturday:

I gotta wake up early morning..
And off to the garage i go...
Super tired coz i din sleep real early the night before...

He was busy with his car thingy, changing oil, shifting tyres, adjusting steering wheels,
checking gear box.. blah blah blah~~
And i was enjoying myself sitting there chatting with his fren...

Den his fren pop this qns: " Hey, we are having this racequeen audition
this afternoon for an upcoming event in june, wanna give it a try? "
And i was like: " huh? Racequeen? What's that? "
And den i found out.. that racequeen = models for cars~~
I wasn't that sure i was good enuff for it,
and pleaseee... i was in the least make up i ever had that morning!!

But... when i ask him.. he say.. : " why not? go and try la.. no harm ma."
So he simply drove me to where the auditon was held..

when i went upstair, one gal was having her shots taken..
in tube.. and mini skirt.. and i started to panicked..
Omg.. how am i gg to wear that infront of soo many pple and strike a seducing pose?... >.<

After panicking for about 30minutes.. it's my turn~~!!
I went into the ladies.. changed into the first outfit..
a white tube with white mini skirt..
and off i go.. posing time!!!
" Snap ! Shoulder straighten up.. bend ya body, smile!! "
" Alright! done, you can change to the other outfit~ "

The 2nd outfit was white and red collar top and aso a mini skirt..
But i have to say this outfit is slightly better... excepting for the irritating collar that keeps flipping up..
After 1Hour or so.. i am finally done..
And.......... after looking at my pic.. i came to a conclusion that...
my pics aren't nice!!! My face is so pale becoz i din put on any make up,
and becoz of the tupid flash from the camera..
So we agree to do my make up.. and give it another shot~~

15mins went by..
My face is finally done~
Now i have more confident.. 30minutes later..
I am done.. and the finish sure looks better from my previous shoots~

But frankly speaking.. i wasn't thinking so much abt being selected..
Reasons being, i don't think i am that pretty, i don't have the experience and i am not photogenic...

But... 28th May 2007, i recieve an email..
And i was selected!!!!!
I was surprise and shock cum happy at the same time..
I mean this might not be anything to others, but.. it's my first time, and i am being selected..

But sad to say, i won't going for the event, becoz, i will not be paid..
And it"s a full 3 days event, in fact it's more like a competition den event,
and i was one of the 12 finalist that is selected to compete for the Racequeen title..
Which.. i really don't think i am interested..
So i have decided not to participate.

Anyway being in the auditions is fun enought for me..
It's was another kinda exposure too though i din participate in the contest on the day itself.\
And that's becoz i dun see the need to.. ^_^